tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5606734429657625929.post1010476487855788692..comments2024-02-06T14:09:50.207+11:00Comments on .:Too Much, Not Enough:.: Beginning of the EndBellahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07544398450025713725noreply@blogger.comBlogger6125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5606734429657625929.post-27253442813905075572017-03-16T11:02:20.627+11:002017-03-16T11:02:20.627+11:00So worried about you.So worried about you.NOLASAMOhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14190575043285536413noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5606734429657625929.post-32917519749721557492017-03-05T10:06:02.660+11:002017-03-05T10:06:02.660+11:00"Fear, to a great extent, is born of a story ..."Fear, to a great extent, is born of a story we tell ourselves, and so I chose to tell myself a different story from the one women are told. I decided I was safe. I was strong. I was brave. Nothing could vanquish me.” <br />― Cheryl Strayed, Wild<br /><br />Stop telling yourself that you're terrified. No one is born fearless, you have to make yourself that way. So tell yourself you're strong and courageous, and take that walk around the block! Maybe listen to music or a podcast or an audiobook if it helps you distract yourself. <br /><br />You are strong. You are courageous. You can do whatever you put your mind to. But in the meantime, baby steps. I know you can do this. Jaxhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11334050168942123409noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5606734429657625929.post-27423803384086009442017-03-03T00:50:31.943+11:002017-03-03T00:50:31.943+11:00"How in the world did you manage that?! How l..."How in the world did you manage that?! How long were you driving for?" maybe 40 minutes. Bahrain is small. <br /><br />i love you too. ditto on hating that you're struggling right now. <br /><br />i honestly have to believe that things will get better for the both of us. it's got to. i mean... we deserve so much better than this. we really do.<br /><br />you are so wonderful.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />- Sam LupinSam Lupinhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12704442793403106405noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5606734429657625929.post-21160677522723113112017-03-01T05:54:57.649+11:002017-03-01T05:54:57.649+11:00OH Bella, I'm so sorry! I hope she changes her...OH Bella, I'm so sorry! I hope she changes her mind - more isolation is the last thing you need. Love and hugs!Nasimiyuhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18244051309352578806noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5606734429657625929.post-23840559076363993472017-03-01T05:03:42.163+11:002017-03-01T05:03:42.163+11:00My guess is your mother is desperate. She probably...My guess is your mother is desperate. She probably thinks that doing something this severe might be the thing that spurs you into action as far as taking your wellness/appointments/etc. into your own hands, which would be a huge step towards major recovery. If it works. <br /><br />Hang in there, luv. Michhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12456803425068822920noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5606734429657625929.post-38259504273039981762017-02-28T20:23:36.953+11:002017-02-28T20:23:36.953+11:00your journal has been neglected? that's so odd...your journal has been neglected? that's so odd.<br /><br />i still cannot believe your mother. dear God. what the hell? i do not want to speak ill of your parent because i'm not allowed to. they're not my parents, but seriously.<br /><br />i definitely understand both those points you brought up. it's just... it's amazing that she's even gone down to not taking you to appointments. a three minute walk away. and she wouldn't let you say goodbye to them. it's just... this is unbelievable. like you need more reason to stay in that hellish house of yours.<br /><br />i cannot believe this. a 3 minute... oh God. i'm not even going to finish that sentence.<br /><br />i want you to get help. because that's what you deserve. this is just... this situation is beyond everything.<br /><br />"Without appointments, or learning how to drive, there's nothing left for me to get out for. They were the only access I had to the outside world." reading this honestly breaks my heart so much.<br /><br />"I just zombie on the couch in my pajamas all day, re-runs playing in the background to try to distract myself from the nothingness." and that's alright. God. this is a bombshell. you need time to process this. i'd be worried if you didn't. just try to breathe in. take it all in. do what's easy for you that day. <br /><br />keep your head up as best you can, love. i trust that this is not going to be how it's always is. you are amazing. you are astounding. i am so proud of you for everything that you do against the little devil. i really do hope one day you'd be able to block that little arse out completely.<br /><br />but for now, really... breathe, love. breathe.<br /><br /><br /><br />- Sam Lupin Sam Lupinhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12704442793403106405noreply@blogger.com