Wednesday 27 February 2013

Zombie

Every week that my weight drops a little, I remind myself that it all adds up. "Progress is progress, no matter how slow" and all that. Well, yesterday was proof. After being weighed (and having lost more), my dietician expressed concern about how much I've lost. She said its very important to stop losing weight now, and I really need to start putting my intake back up. I'm trying the best I can each day, but I've really lost a lot of motivation to eat. I just don't have the energy to deal with it right now, though I'm very curious about how much I've lost.

Anyway, that aside, mum and I are going on a little holiday. We're headed down the Great Ocean Road for a couple of nights. I need to get out of this house so badly right now, I can't stand it. So on Monday, we decided to go away today through Friday. At the moment, the only place I feel safe going out is the supermarket. I can't go into town, I won't go into shops, I don't like to go out in my city. Maybe a different town will remove at least some anxiety and fear. If not, at least there'll be a nice room to panic in. I'd like to try to make it a half-pleasant experience for mum too - we haven't been on a holiday together in years, and she's really looking forward to it. I'm hoping we can at least go out for a coffee, and I know there's this cheese place she wants to go to.

And holy crap guys, seroquel makes me tired. Like, I'm passed out an hour after I take it. It isn't helping much during the day yet, but the GP said I can take two if I feel I need it, so I might try that next week. At the moment, my head goes a mile-a-minute for most of the day until I have a breakdown at some point, usually in the afternoon. After a few hours I eventually have dinner and my seroquel, turn into a complete zombie, and I'm usually in bed within the hour. I'm sleeping for 6 hours though, which is the most I've had in months. So that's definitely a plus.

Anyway, we're about to pack up the car and get driving. We'll have wifi, so I'll try to stay up-to-date with reading and commenting.


xxBella

6 comments:

  1. I'm so glad you're going on vacation sweetie! Just try your best to relax and enjoy your break and your time with your mom.
    You are loved.
    Xx

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  2. I think it will do you the world of good to get away
    A change of scenery and a reminder that there is a whole world out there

    Enjoy it and stay safe

    Lots of love x

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  3. Have fun on your vacation! It will do you good to see that there is a world outside of your town. I hope you can escape your ED (even if it's for a few days) and enjoy time with your mom<3

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  4. Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooh have fun on your holiday babe, you deserve it

    Princess xxx
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  5. Have a wonderful vacation, get away for a little while :) Tons of love xxx

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  6. I was actually prescribed seroquel as a sleep aid for my insomnia. Didn't do much for me though, so we switched it. Glad that it's helping you sleep though! :)
    xx

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