Meal Plan

I wake up in the morning, and I stay on the couch for an hour before actually getting up, dreading the day ahead. After I get up, it's all about waiting for the day to pass, trying to make it speed by as quickly as possible. I curl up in my armchair on the porch, pull my knees up and my blankets over me. I just want to sleep all the time, but I never do. 

I have so little to say, I do so little, it's not even funny. I prepare food, I spend a lot of time on Blogger, sometimes I sew. I cry, ramble and hurt myself, breaking down over the smallest things. Mum takes me out for a drive each day, not that I ever get out of the car. We'll spend an hour driving around the outer suburbs, in a desperate attempt to make my time pass quicker. It's all quite pathetic, honestly. 

Enough moaning and groaning. I'm trying not to let depression's word-vomit run rampant. So I've got something a little different today, for a change of pace. I talk sometimes about changes to my meal plan, or breaks in routine, but I haven't actually posted my meal plan here for quite a while. So, here it is, what I suppose you'd call an 'average day' of food.

Breakfast (88-99 cal)

20-25g (one slice) wholemeal bread with 6g Vegemite and 80g nonfat strawberry yoghurt

Lunch (148-184 cal)

A sandwich, with an average 45g of wholemeal bread (105). I alternate between two fillings. 

Either: 6g Vegemite and 20g 97% fat free cheddar (148)

Or: 2g canola spread, 40g mashed egg, 23g carrot and 24g iceberg lettuce (184)

Snack (78-105 cal)

Either a 95-100g pot of custard (100-105)

Or 150-200g (two small) golden delicious apples (78-104)

Dinner (125-300 cal)

Either: 200-250g soup (lamb, lentils, barley, peas, carrot, potato & onion) with 10-20g wholemeal bread (125-174)

Or: 200-250g stew (beef, carrot, potato, tomato, onion, flour) with 10-20g wholemeal bread (141-194)

If I cook a 'family dinner', my serve comes out around 300 calories.

Supper (183-215 cal)

22-25g mini bag of Outback Animal Cookies (88-100) and an 80-90g Skinny Cow Sundae (95-115)

Total = 622 - 903 calories

I also drink 4-6 cups of black coffee (12-18 cal) and 6-8 cans/2-3L of Coke Zero (7-9 cal) throughout the day (I'm a caffeine junkie, shoot me).

Ensure makes up the extra 300-600 calories. I'm apprehensive to go any higher than 1,200 until my meals change, but I don't want to change my meals that much either. At the moment I'm working towards eating family dinners most nights, and saving soup for a 'sometimes' dinner.

As I've said before, stir-fries are my 'safe' family dinner, though sometimes I cook things like bolognese, curries, risotto. And I don't think I've mentioned this, but currently I won't use two pieces of cutlery, like a knife and fork (it's too confusing), which limits my options. Once I get past that barrier, which will hopefully be soon, I'll be enjoying fish and salads and baked potatoes.

That's about all from me for now. I hope you're all enjoying the weekend, whatever it may hold. 

xxBella