I saw the dietician earlier. She was away last week, which always makes me anxious to get on the scales. I quickly filled her in about the GP appointments, and then it was down to business and numbers.
My intake's been slightly better these past two weeks, still making progress albeit slow. I'm not having as many days under 1,000 as I was a month ago. Most days I'm actually drinking the Ensure instead of just leaving my intake short. On a 'good' day, I land between 950-1,050 calories. She asked if I've been doing any baking, which I haven't. Changes in routine are still very daunting, but I've cooked three stir-fries, a batch of bolognese and a long-grain risotto (all weighed and measured, with little or no oil), so I'm making progress in the dinner department.
Since I've been aiming for the same calorie range for so long, she decided it's time to start trying for 1,200. It's a big milestone in my mind, and it's scary as hell, but I know that it's necessary. I can't say I'm comfortable with it, but will I ever be? I don't think I'll be making any great sudden changes to my meal plan, but we'll see how it plays out.
We went to the scales, and my weight's gone up a little bit over the past two weeks. The dietician said she was really relieved, that she was worried it'd drop more when I really can't afford for it to. I wasn't quite as happy. I have to keep reminding myself: it's just a fluctuation, and it's small. It won't automatically change the downward trend into an upward trend.
In unrelated news, the weather's warming up down here, and it's lovely. I can spend some parts of the day without blankets and layers. I can sit outside and not be drenched by rain or blown away by howling winds. I'm craving fruit and vege like mad, and the air smells of summer. It's all very refreshing. But once it starts edging closer to 30*c, then I'm in trouble. Heatstroke becomes a very real risk, and leaves me trapped inside more than I'm comfortable with. For now though, I'll just try to enjoy the short-lived middle ground.
My skirt is nearly finished, just in time for the warmer weather. Spoiler alert: it's a size 4 AU, and it fits! Like a dream. I tried it on as soon as I put the zipper in, and it was the bright spot in my week. I'm in love. I haven't worn anything that fits this well in years. This is why I started sewing again. It's my first size 4, and there'll be more to come. Pictures will be up in a few days after it's finished.