Sunday, 6 January 2013

Baby Steps

Thank you to everyone who's been reading and commenting lately. You girls are all so wonderful, and your support & care means a lot to me. I'm trying to send more comments lately, even if I'm stuck for words, so bear with me <3

I went to the supermarket on Friday, for the first time in months. It was just a quick 5-minute trip, but still a big step. I hope I can start to get out of the house more, because I'm tired of being so isolated.

My routine went out the window when this manic episode started, but I'm trying to get it back. For now I need to send more comments, eat all of my mini-meals, write in my journal, and try to get out of the house more. Distractions are the only thing that help right now, so I need to keep myself busy.

And amazingly enough, I didn't get to the GP this morning to get my OBs done. I have two more weeks before I run out of anti-depressants though, and then I really need to get there.

16 days until I weigh myself


  1. Well done on going shopping Bella, I know how difficult that can be

    Stay well
    Stay strong
    You are precious x

  2. Wow your doing great. I once didn't leave the house for about 5 months, so I know how tough it is when your isolated however taking baby steps is the key. Lots of Lucie Love xx

  3. I love you bella lots and lots :-) im going to try the veg and fruit before breakfast only thing like u suggested to break my cycle of night eating then running on empty during the day. restriction definitely working tho, im pear shaped naturally; always been smaller on top which is why i think ed nhs ppl always think im smaller than i am, but this morning all my saddle bags have gone. yipeeeeee! so im looking forward to weighing myself accuratly after not drinking a ton of water and eating 1/3 of my daily intake a few hours beforehand! will weigh in tuesday for this, which gives me tonight to try and snap out of the cycle, but ive bought babycorn and clementines, so my midnight eating should b less than 100kcals eee xxx love u bella boooooo sorry im struggling with reading and commeenting as well, so sorry if this is all gobbeldigoop xxx

    1. ps ive taken ur treat day idea, hope u dont mind? sundays are treat days which means i can eat more this eve and break cycle each sunday until ive got my temazepam bk :-) x

  4. Baby steps is the key! Keep going hunni :) Xx

  5. Just started following, but it seems you and I have a lot in common. I mean we all do on this online community. But our weights and measurements are similar and our natural weights. Except you're almost a whole foot taller than I am. So I can't imagine how well you look. I'm glad you got out of the house and to the store. I also did my grocery shopping this weekend, but went with my boyfriend because he helps hold me accountable. It's sad that I'm a grown woman and I can't go grocery shopping alone. Keep up all the hard work darlin.

  6. Hey darling. I've missed you. Sorry I've been so bad at reading and commenting recently. Thank you so much for all your comments on my posts, you give me so much strength.
    I'm so proud of you for going out to the supermarket, that must have taken so much strength. I'm really happy for you.
    Take care.

    I hope that in future I can go back to regularly reading and commenting. I've missed everyone so much.

  7. Hey Bella, I'm so glad you went out for a while. I'm pretty isolated most of the time too, especially since I'm holidays from uni so I don't even have there to go to. I find the more often I leave the house, the easier it is or the more I feel like going out :)
    Take care <3
    Alice xx

  8. congratulations on your baby step, dear. (:

    stay lovely. <3

  9. Dont worry bella lovely, ive been struggling to comment as well. i hope you are ok and i love u lots and lots and lots and lots xxxx im sorry ive been absent too, everythings been a blur and i feel obese :-( xxx