The past days have been filled with a quiet sense of celebration, with brief periods of concern for my self.
I was honestly surprised the other day when my dietician told me how much I'd lost. I was expecting less, as always. She keeps saying that I "need to reverse the downward trend", but at the moment I just can't bear the thought of gaining weight. I've been floating between wanting to lose more and wanting to maintain, and actually knowing what my weight is helps in my choice. I mean, a 3kg loss seems like a lot to me. It's the most I've lost in the past year, and I know I really can't afford to lose much more at this point, so maybe it's time to give my body a break.
Lately, my dietician keeps reminding me that I can come in to see her on Thursdays, no charge, any time I need. She really is a sweetheart. The plan is basically to see how I go with my intake this week, and work from there. I'm sticking with my motto of "one meal at a time". Yesterday was 800 calories, due to the lingering presence of fresh banana-bran bread, and the irresistible temptation of homemade bolognese.
I'm still stuck in my ways with apples for lunch though, and my toast-and-yoghurt 100-calorie breakfast combo. Higher calorie foods later in the day are, and have been, more incidental than anything. I still have soup and safe foods on hand, but some nights I'll join with a small serve of a family dinner (meaning I cook it and weigh everything, so I have an accurate nutritional count for my serve), or things like cheese and crackers. Tonight's dinner for mum and I happens to be frozen homemade soup. Too easy.
I did my measurements this morning. It's the first time I've done them properly since October. I've lost a few inches - one from my waist, one from my bust, little bits from my limbs. As a fun comparison, let's take a look at my pre-ED measurements. When I used to sew for myself a lot, my bust/waist/hips were: 38-32-36. That's a lot of inches, except for my cursed hips.
Bust 26.5" (-1")
Waist 20.5" (-1")
Thigh (top) 15" (-0.5")
Thigh (bottom) 11" (-0.5")
Calf (top) 10.5"
Calf (ankle) 7.5"
Upper arm (top) 9"
Upper arm (bottom) 7.5" (-0.5")
Forearm (top) 8"
Forearm (wrist) 5"