Weight: 44.4 kg (97.7 lb)
I couldn't gussy up the strength to get on the scales myself, but it's been driving me crazy. I asked my dietician to tell me how much I've lost.
Recently, I've been putting off weighing myself. It's been pushing me to want to lose 'more' first - even when I've been trying to rationalize maintaining my weight again.
I've lost 3kg (6.6lb) in the last few months. Before that, I'd been maintaining.
The last time I weighed myself was the morning of my first appointment with her, so I already had an accurate starting weight (47.4kg - BMI 13.8). And I think I've mentioned before, I weigh my clothes on my kitchen scales, and construct weigh-day outfits accordingly.
I can't seem to explain why, but for now at least, I think I can work towards maintaining again. Maybe because its a nice number, maybe because its safely under 100lbs.
Either way, my dietician was pleased with my reaction. It hasn't triggered me further down the rabbit hole, and hopefully it can actually help with my journey towards 'maintenance'.
The last week has been totally emotionally draining, and I haven't really had much to say. I'm hoping the next week will be better, and I'll be able to gather my thoughts about all this.