Yoghurt for breakfast this morning, alongside my Ensure. It's progress. I tried to have some pasta with my family last night, but gave up after about 1/2 cup. It was just too much too soon after 6 days on liquids. Usually I jump straight back into 'normal' foods and have no problems doing so, but it just isn't going to work this time around. I also tried a dry cracker and about 1/4 of a fat-free pudding cup, but it was still just too much. Too dry, too rich, too thick, too heavy, too strong, toomuchtoomuchtoomuch. It was so hard to do, but it was worth it to see Mum smile.

So here I am, working yoghurt back in. The plan for today is a yoghurt and a 155ml Ensure for each breakfast, lunch and dinner, and a 230ml Ensure for morning tea and afternoon tea. I had my breakfast just before. It was half an hour to get through my 175g yoghurt. I'm going to bring in stewed fruit with custard, and maybe try the pudding cups again, in the next few days, and go from there. Slow and steady wins the race.

I've had the horrible bright pink shawl around my shoulders for weeks now. I shuffle around in my dressing gown and shawl and slippers, feeling like a little old lady. Mum and I were laughing about it yesterday, and I went and got my grandfather's walking stick, put my mum's reading glasses on the tip of my nose, hunched over, and hobbled around cackling "Boiled sweet, dear?" in the best old lady voice. It was good to laugh with my family. It's been very sombre the past week.''

A week and a half until I see my dietician (Tue 23rd), and I'm hoping I'll have a bit more of a solid intake going by then. I'm aiming to start on yoghurts for a day or two, then stewed fruit & custard (I'd only recently discovered a love for pureed apples with custard - peaches, too), then probably soft foods like oatmeal and such, then bring back more grains and protein and fresh produce. Hopefully I'll be close to my normal diet again by then. For now, one day at a time, one step at a time.

xxBella