Lately, I've lost all motivation for, well, everything. When I wake up in the morning, I'm overwhelmed by a wave of anxiety and fear. I just want to spend all day curled up on the couch. I want to restrict so badly. Maybe I will soon. I wish my sugar levels would hold up for more than a couple of short days restricting.
I'm trying to decide if I really want to lose more weight right now, or wait a little longer. I don't feel like my body's strong enough at the moment to hold up to more restricting and weight loss. It will happen, even just a few kilos, but I don't know whether it'll be in a week or a month or whenever. I guess it'll just happen when I get too frustrated with seeing my dietician and figuring out maintenance etc.. I'm hoping I can put my intake down just a little this week, even just to 900. Everything sorta revolves around how my dietician appointment/weigh in goes on Tuesday.
Sorry for the rambling. And sorry I've been so crappy at commenting lately (again) - I'm reading everyone's posts, but just haven't been feeling up to commenting when I'm spending most days curled up in a ball. Trying to get back to that <3