I made my mum cry today. For the second time in a week. Because I keep hurting myself and crying and screaming about how much I want to die, and what a horrible/wasteful/manipulative/disgusting/fat/malicious/hurtful/destructive person I am, that I should just die, that I need it all to be over.
Feels bad, man :'( I need to run away and lock myself in seclusion and stop hurting everyone around me with everything I do. My mum never cries. But she's cried twice in the past week because I can't shut my fucking mouth and go to my room and hurt myself quietly.
I'm so fucking selfish