Agh. If its not obvious, I'm having a horrible battle between whether I should keep trying to maintain my weight or give in and start restricting again. I've made so much progress. I don't want to screw it up now. Three months ago, if I ate 1,000 calories I'd have to eat <200 for a week to lose the kilo I'd gain. Now I can eat 1,000 every day and maintain my weight. I don't want to get caught in this cycle and end up in hospital again, because I'm doing damn well to avoid it as is. Eating is just getting harder - food is so unappealing.
I think I'm gonna try to eat 1,000 calories tomorrow. I need to at least try. Wish me luck.