I ended up losing a little weight this week. Well, it 'went way down', but my dietitian didn't seen to want to tell me how much. More than the half kilo I gained last week. So I'm lower than I started, boo yah! There's a little pressure coming on to 'raise my BMI', but I'm not ready. If pressure comes on too much, I'm gonna bolt like a horse. I'm still eating 1,000 calories a day. I'm thinking I might do a meal plan post in the next week so you guys can see some of the stuff I'm eating (still 99% clean & healthy). She came up with a few GP reccomendations, so hopefully I'll find someone new soon. I don't want to gain. I'm quitting while I'm ahead - why would I want to get fat now? I feel invincible, achieving the impossible by eating more normal amounts while keeping my unnatural body. I feel like I have the best of both worlds.
In other news, today is my fourth day of waiting until nighttime before I 'smoke'. I'm over the hardest part, and I got a little 'buzz' last night after smoking half what I normally do. With any luck, my tolerance will keep lowering from here. Yesterday, I didn't cry, scream, hurt myself, break anything, etc.! Definitely over the hard part. Now I just need to keep it to after dinner only, which I've never managed to do for more than a few days in the two years I've been smoking bud. As I said to my mum last week, "As long as I'm not eating 50 calories a day and smoking a half bag a day, I'm doing okay."
Thank you to all you lovely ladies who commented on my last post. Love you all so, so much <3