Had a hard day. Didn't get off the couch between lunch (11:50am) and a late dinner (7:30pm). This is unusual for me. I slept a couple of hours, but spent most of my time crying, screaming, bashing my head it, scratching at my fat, ripping out chunks of hair, and just being a complete wreck. So terrified of gaining/eating/weakness/everything. Pushed myself over 800, mostly because I want to Stick to the Plan and see what happens/find out why I gain. I need to try harder. I need more support. I ran a whole hour this morning so I'd burn off more than I eat, plus a lot of yoga and walking. I really want/need to know what this intake does to my body. The suspense is killing me.
Snack: coffee. 4 calories.
Breakfast: egg whites with tomato sauce, toast (half with canola & Vegemite), oats with stevia & cinnamon, oolong tea, coffee, strawberries & watermelon. 224 calories
L: Caesar salad (cos, bacon, grain croutons, parmesan, dressing, whole egg), oolong tea, yoghurt, peppermint tea. 248 calories.
D: egg whites with tomato sauce, toast (half with Vegemite), skim Milo. 249 calories.
S: SF ice cream & Milo. 114 calories.
Total: 839 calories
Burnt: 1,072 calories