This was me at 55kg, which is the lowest weight I can get to before the pressure stops to gain more, and it would go into my hands to gain or maintain. I'm a little skinny-fat, but not fat, right? And since I'm going to start toning, I hopefully won't be quite that big.

I just want to get psych help, but the system is fucked, and it isn't available until you reach a healthy(er) weight. BMI 15-16 is the minimum, which is 52-55kg for someone as tall as I am (185cm/6'1").

I think I can deal with this weight, and if the psych help works, I'll go from there.

I can always just lose it all again...